always.

Monday, January 14, 2008

Yesterday I came to know about something that I wished I hadn't known.
Somebody I always looked up to had made the wrong decision.
Somebody who had been the one who always adviced me had disregarded her own advice.
At that that very moment that the truth hit me, so many thoughts that I thought would be forever at the back of my mind surfaced.
So many emotions stirred in my heart, it confused me.
I could neither sort out my feelings nor my thoughts.
It came in such a huge load, I felt I was nearly suffocating.

I gazed out of the window and watched pellets of rain beat against the glass windows of cars and houses as I replayed everything that had just heard.
No matter how many times I had hit the rewind button, it just didn't make any sense.
Almost every person I saw walking down the lane were carrying an umbrella or under some shelter.
At that moment, the raindrops falling from the sky didn't seem like raindrops at all.
Somebody was crying, somebody was so sad at all the wrong choices people were making, how everybody had put Him in a box and forgotten all about him.
The raindrops were like the tears of God.
For the first time, I could feel the exact pain God felt when He sees us, the people He loves so dearly, make wrong choices.
It was as if somebody had taken my heart in his hand and squeezed it so tightly, I wasn't sure if my heart was beating anymore.
He longs to get to us and help us get back on the right track again but all His 'tears' just pelt against our glassy hearts, unable to reach the innermost depths of us.
He tries again and again, sending us messages along the way but we just choose to ignore it and go along with the crowd.
It's just so easy to travel the broad road with everybody else instead of the straight and narrow paths alone, isn't it?
When He finally sends us a big 'BAM' along our way to prevent us from falling any deeper into the pit, we blame Him for the state He caused us to be in.
But did you ever think again?
Who was the one who had made the decision to start on the wrong path?
Why is it that we always blame God for all the bad stuff that happens to us and give ourselves all the credit when good things happen?

If you feel God speaking to you right at this moment, I hope you'll think again before making the decision to start on the wrong path. If you are already on the wrong path, don't let yourself go any further. Make that detour back onto the right path, it's never too late.

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Every human is unique. Each having different mindsets, attitudes, characters, perceptions, environments.. We create conflict, for we dont understand each other, we dont understand how another can think so differently from ourselves. Thus we harbour much bitterness to each other, most of the time judging others for their wrong doings. But who are we judging? when we're sinners all the same, and clinging to the grace of God. Who are we judging when we all fall short when we face the true judge Himself. Yes, we must correct the sin and the wrong in this world, but we must remember to condemn the sin and not the sinner.. Have you been in a situation where youve been completely wronged by someone, when you yourself did nothing wrong? Well its probably an incy bit (too small to describe) of what Jesus when through. Did NOTHING wrong, yet completely hated by the world he came to save.. It isnt easy, learning to love like He did.

It may not even seem right
I didnt even put up a fight
Craziness it seems
But deep in me a memory

Of a man who did nothing but right
And still he did not put up a fight
And Im hoping you will see
I'm here to be your friend, not your enemy

Yes I can sit here and judge
Condemn you of your wrong
But who am I to point a finger?
When the debt of my sin still lingers
And I'll take blow after blow
Just for the hope that you one day know
That you'll turn around
And receive this grace that I found

I was about to strike back
When a voice it stopped me on my tracks
It said, "Do you remember? Do you remember?"

"How you once bore a penalty,
How undeservingly you were set free,
How your chains were ridden,
How your debts were forgotten?"

Yes, I can sit here and judge
Condemn you of your wrong
But who am I to point a finger?
When the debt of my sin still lingers
And I'll take blow after blow
Just for the hope that you one day know
That you'll turn around
And receive this grace that I found

And we don't know if its you or me to blame
But whose to say when were guilty all the same
It aint easy...Loving like He did

We strive in vain to see who gets more
But my friend, we're all sinners after all
It aint easy...
Loving like He did

You've struck my right, now here's my left to you
All I wish is that you'll see right through
It aint easy...
Loving like He did

Post and song written by Ben

Friday, January 4, 2008

Was clearing some photos from my files when I came across these.
When I went through those photos, all the memories from the past two years came flowing back.
And yeah, it was simply overwhelming.
Now, I've come to realise what they mean by "You won't learn to appreciate it until the day you lose it".
I miss so many people.
Their lame jokes that simply annoyed me,
The heart to heart talks we shared over the phone,
Their laughters that I still remember so clearly.
Most of all, I miss the EC concerts we had in the back of our class. :)
Memories.
All those friendships I forged over the last two years will be forever etched in my heart. <3


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When God Ran - Better Days	Monday, January 14, 2008 Yesterday I came to know about something that I wished I hadn't known. Somebody I always looked up to had made the wrong decision. Somebody who had been the one who always adviced me had disregarded her own advice. At that that very moment that the truth hit me, so many thoughts that I thought would be forever at the back of my mind surfaced. So many emotions stirred in my heart, it confused me. I could neither sort out my feelings nor my thoughts. It came in such a huge load, I felt I was nearly suffocating. I gazed out of the window and watched pellets of rain beat against the glass windows of cars and houses as I replayed everything that had just heard. No matter how many times I had hit the rewind button, it just didn't make any sense. Almost every person I saw walking down the lane were carrying an umbrella or under some shelter. At that moment, the raindrops falling from the sky didn't seem like raindrops at all. Somebody was crying, somebody was so sad at all the wrong choices people were making, how everybody had put Him in a box and forgotten all about him. The raindrops were like the tears of God. For the first time, I could feel the exact pain God felt when He sees us, the people He loves so dearly, make wrong choices. It was as if somebody had taken my heart in his hand and squeezed it so tightly, I wasn't sure if my heart was beating anymore. He longs to get to us and help us get back on the right track again but all His 'tears' just pelt against our glassy hearts, unable to reach the innermost depths of us. He tries again and again, sending us messages along the way but we just choose to ignore it and go along with the crowd. It's just so easy to travel the broad road with everybody else instead of the straight and narrow paths alone, isn't it? When He finally sends us a big 'BAM' along our way to prevent us from falling any deeper into the pit, we blame Him for the state He caused us to be in. But did you ever think again? Who was the one who had made the decision to start on the wrong path? Why is it that we always blame God for all the bad stuff that happens to us and give ourselves all the credit when good things happen? If you feel God speaking to you right at this moment, I hope you'll think again before making the decision to start on the wrong path. If you are already on the wrong path, don't let yourself go any further. Make that detour back onto the right path, it's never too late. 4:58 AM · Saturday, January 5, 2008 Every human is unique. Each having different mindsets, attitudes, characters, perceptions, environments.. We create conflict, for we dont understand each other, we dont understand how another can think so differently from ourselves. Thus we harbour much bitterness to each other, most of the time judging others for their wrong doings. But who are we judging? when we're sinners all the same, and clinging to the grace of God. Who are we judging when we all fall short when we face the true judge Himself. Yes, we must correct the sin and the wrong in this world, but we must remember to condemn the sin and not the sinner.. Have you been in a situation where youve been completely wronged by someone, when you yourself did nothing wrong? Well its probably an incy bit (too small to describe) of what Jesus when through. Did NOTHING wrong, yet completely hated by the world he came to save.. It isnt easy, learning to love like He did. It may not even seem right I didnt even put up a fight Craziness it seems But deep in me a memory Of a man who did nothing but right And still he did not put up a fight And Im hoping you will see I'm here to be your friend, not your enemy Yes I can sit here and judge Condemn you of your wrong But who am I to point a finger? When the debt of my sin still lingers And I'll take blow after blow Just for the hope that you one day know That you'll turn around And receive this grace that I found I was about to strike back When a voice it stopped me on my tracks It said, "Do you remember? Do you remember?" "How you once bore a penalty, How undeservingly you were set free, How your chains were ridden, How your debts were forgotten?" Yes, I can sit here and judge Condemn you of your wrong But who am I to point a finger? When the debt of my sin still lingers And I'll take blow after blow Just for the hope that you one day know That you'll turn around And receive this grace that I found And we don't know if its you or me to blame But whose to say when were guilty all the same It aint easy...Loving like He did We strive in vain to see who gets more But my friend, we're all sinners after all It aint easy... Loving like He did You've struck my right, now here's my left to you All I wish is that you'll see right through It aint easy... Loving like He did Post and song written by Ben 6:15 AM · Friday, January 4, 2008 Was clearing some photos from my files when I came across these. When I went through those photos, all the memories from the past two years came flowing back. And yeah, it was simply overwhelming. Now, I've come to realise what they mean by "You won't learn to appreciate it until the day you lose it". I miss so many people. Their lame jokes that simply annoyed me, The heart to heart talks we shared over the phone, Their laughters that I still remember so clearly. Most of all, I miss the EC concerts we had in the back of our class. :) Memories. All those friendships I forged over the last two years will be forever etched in my heart. <3 3:16 AM ·